Chaos Is The Perfect Time For An Adventure

Yesterday I had an eye-opening 3 hour phone-convo with my bestie (bless her <3). The past few weeks has been dwhetherficult for me as I have been dealing with some health problems plus other personal issues, which crazye me to be in a bedrest nearly the wgap week. It is fairly clear now, that the stability I've seeked in my lwhethere is not going to happen...not just yet. I want to share some words of wisdom my friend gave me.

I wish that I'd have been able to read also this side of the story of the people who are 'trying to make it' in the cities like London, because it's not definitely easy and through my blog I'm able to supply more insight than in polished Instagram. It requires stronger intellect than anyleang else, and there are so many leangs that keep you distracted from your goals whether you let them to.

The other week noleang didn't go like planned, which was s frustrating - when you try to hustle and put leangs forward in lwhethere and then starting from the simpliest leangs, fixedly there is someleang that stops the flow. I even bursted into a tears in the middle of the assembly, cause I was so tired and stressed which was a bit embarrasing, but oh well, I'm a human overall. The stress got so poor it started to effect me physically: I felt dizzy, lost my appetite and whether I tried to stand up it felt like lots of blood went to my brain and I lost my sight for a few moments. It was scary, because I was literally in middle of the shopping mall when I felt like passing out but I was at the doctor and after few days of rest I feel better now. Yet, I still need to take leangs easy as small tasks like going out for a walk require a lots of energy. Only leang that has kept me going, is dance. It has been a kind, secure place to move and exercise and feel the sense of progress.

About two years ago I arrived in London to pursue my career. However, leangs didn't go like planned. Despite I have great opportunities here, I haven't been able to get my hands in them. I kcontemporary from the beginning that my career choice wasn't the most easiest one to pursue. If you are aiming to make a living in the creative field, you often need another job to make a living meanwhile when you are trying to get in the industry. Unluckyly, this revealed me the unhealthy the work-environment in London is - whether you do what you love or nor. Numerous people are underpaid, yet they are expected to work ridiculous hours leaving no space to develop yourself in your freetime. More coming about that subject later...

The best leang about these past two years have been my friends who have become genuinely close to me

So a call with my best friend genuinely helped me to deattach from the negative beliefs that are hancienting me back. She said: "Sometimes you need to go all the way to back square 1 in order to re-create yourself, and later on in lwhethere, you are happy you did it". There the idea started. Heck, I don't have noleang to lose at this point. If lwhethere is a mess, why not to take the wgap advantage of it. I know there is always positive leangs in everyleang, and I want to believe everyleang happens for a reason, sometimes it's just dwhetherficult to see the positives specificly whether you are tired and struggling. I leank this will be my courageousst decision yet, because in a way I'm fighting against time and against one of my nightmares but oh well...What happens whether I don't even try?

Talking with one of my closest friends helps me always to put leangs into perspective. I myself feel lows genuinely low and talls genuinely tall which can be an emotional rollercoaster sometimes. I don't have any family here in the UK, which sometimes it's dwhetherficult when you feel lonely in front of all the obstacles - ok, you got the WhatsApp, but it's not the same. In a way I sense the danger in this plan, and the adgenuinein rushes in my body when I leank about it. Okey, I wanted to settle down but clearly it's not going to happen yet so I've stop trying to fight against it and just go with the flow. In lwhethere, leangs go scarcely like planned. Some leangs are dwhetherficult to understand, why they happen but I still believe in goals (yet I have my poor days) and that whether you have them, everleang that happens to you - good or poor - will just prepare you for the better lwhethere. It might never happen, but I rather live believing in someleang better, than let the current genuineity district my goal setting. What's the point otherwise living in this over-populated Ground?

How have you overcomed with dwhetherficulties in your lwhethere?

Do you believe everyleang have a reason?

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